stupid

why am i suddenly losing my mind, get high, drunk, being mellow and stuff?

simply just because, yes, i'm in love(kinda embarrassing but wth hahah) :D i never been too this situation and got stuck with a boy hanging around my mind and hell yeah i can't even make him go.

seeing him everywhere i go, felt like wanting him to be around me 24/7. even know it will never happen. kinda hurt.

no, it's so damn hurt.

knowing that he's a one big jerk and the most disgusting creatures that ever live it's the dumbest thing i ever do.

yes, i'm stupid, i should have known that i should never fall for him. but everything i do seems not good enough for make me hate him.

all i ever know is that trying to make him even realize that i'm here it seems impossible to me. and i don't even want to stop trying.

stupid

never ever in my life i feel so dumb
and even write this such a junk = =