delicious ambiguity

why does everybody trying so hard to say something, well say it sok puitis when they're actually facing something. i mean trying too hard to find the right word and publish it anywhere they like or even just say it out loud seems too much. and writing on their blog seems stupid(yes, i am stupid. at the moment XP)

having things going on right in front of my nose felt like an alien stole my brain and hell yeah i can't thing clearly. even i get dumb( oh geez i admit it = =). but hey, that's life we never know what ahead of us and just get crash when it actually come, delicious ambiguity(faak!) some said. but it's a crap = =

gimme back my brain, monkey!

gosh, i look like a lunatic eating ritz, like the whole ritz by myself and now i'm so full of cheese - -" i can feel it, just like there's a lump of cheese dancing around in my stomach gosh

u know what? sometimes i think why is there things that we can't control? just like sun. we can't control it right? and geez it so hot outside now. it feels like i want to fly to the sun with an axe and cut it right in the middle and eat half of it. so the world actually can be a colder place geez

and i wonder why do i love to say geez so much lately? i mean, i don't even understand what the heck is geez( it's an expression, i know. but what is that mean actually huh?) and when people asked me what's with the geez? one thing that i did it for sure is just smile - -"

ahhhhhh i think my brain is stolen by a monkey from aerospace. gosh i don't even know what the heck am i doing right now typing all of this sentense that actually nonsense and yet useless haha - -"




cc'mon gimme back my brain i need it to sleep = =

chongqing, china has eaten me alive

i'm home and never cross my mind that i'm gonna miss china especially chongqing this much - -"

list of things that i miss
1. mcchicken nugget 5 pieces everyday all the time
2. underground market tempat gue beli sendal sial - -"
3. pan jian's chicken leg
4. no.8 middle school's canteen
5. lab kompi where i broke my glasses
6. smelly toilets all over the city
7. 16th floor where all the magic happened
8. room 1810 kamar paling kayak tempat sampah sehotel
9. the elevator that wont close because we press the open button for like 20 minutes
10. disgusting stairs where i lost my breath
11. tempat duduk depan lobby on one night stand with nora
12. receptionist yg nyampe eneg ngeliat muka gue 5 kali nongol sehari buat minta kunci
13. that god damn it bus where i lost my cell
14. anakanak brunei, tarakan, jakarta
15. game center yg gaseru abis bzzt
16. bandara guangzhou tempat gue stuck 2 jam sama guru paling anjing
17. mbajeng and mbasarah yet rudi
18. restoran terkutuk yg bikin gue ngerelain gelang kesayangan gue buat si yuan bojone rina(rina, you owe me big time girl)
19. acara cuci baju and hair dryer it to dry hahahahaha
20. maen texas hold 'em that makes my finger real hurt( 480 sentilan in one night)
21. bahasa alien yang sumpah anjing banget bikin misuh di sembarang tempat
22. bayu's ipod and rudi's headset accompany me when i feel down
23. TD wear where i bought that cap i love so much
24. bakery every morning( love that banana biscuit so muuuuch)
25. walk to school every single day that i impossible do it here
26. luo and peng laoshi. especially peng laoshi with her "not really girl" thingy geez
27. sate kambing ala cina yg sumpah enak banget tapi gue gabisa makan
28. vhe's and rina's camera
29. CAVALERRI and CAVALIERS who fulfill my 2 weeks there
30. the zoo and that panda bag :D
30. ooooooooh, ROOM 1612 WHERE I DID IT ALL
31. shut i begin to cry and forgot things ~~

summer camp 2009 ROCKS!! oyeaaa~~h :D

screewing up

i'm finally home and yea, back to basic. i miss my school(can't believe it), facebook, twitter, especially my blog. facebook has been block in china and i don't even know why. so i kinda miss my friends - -"

so, guangzhou for the past idk 2 weeks. it's been boring with all of its hospitalshit that has been hanging around me. yep, i had two surgery back there. one sinus and one in my troath. the surgery last for 7 hours and it suppose to be 2 hours. parah banget gue. udah ngalahin orang ngelahirin deh. parah.

couples of days ago my friend told me about this summer camp that the ambasador actually made it. and guess what i'm applying and hopefully going back to china on august 2nd and stay there untill august 16th. hopefully.

i can't believe it that i actually missed 2 weeks of school and now i miss it and i want it baaaaaaaaaaack :D but i'm glad i did it and i actually done m surgery. so i guess it worth it :D

tomorrow will be my first day at school and i can't wait. i cut my hair, buy a new pair of shoes, buy a new bag, a new wallet and i decide it to not wear my idk kerudung and stuff. i decide it to go straight away with my polo shirt, jeans, and vest. wish me luck :D

i really don't know what to say but i really want to keep typing and i ends up to screwing all the story hahah.

oh yeaaa, forgot i bought the wimpy kids diary books volume 2 hahahahaha. i love it. i read it on the plane since i found it in jakarta earlier today. the second book called rodrick rules and it's pretty darn good. still love it and wish i got the chance to find the 3th boook :D

byeee

chinaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

gosh, i'm finally going yeaaa. i'll be gone by tomorrow. i'm off to china beibeeh!

some promises are made to be broken

woke up in the middle of the night and don't know what to do jadi update ajaa hahaha

the worst thing about always waking up after hours of good sleeping is to chat with such a crap like a friend of mine. he always giving me some old shit advice(and it's his way of mocking me) that i actually don't need. and yea i had it tonight and it's sucks - -"

with hannah montana on my big screen tivo and him bugging me. it's been horrible night. gosh, i really do boring :((

making a plan. what would i do tomorrow?
i suppose to go to jakarta tomorrow and china the day after that but since i've been told that my parents cancel that trip, fuck. i have nothing to do tomorrow. got no money, no friends(they all gone for holiday, gosh, i envy you guys).

hmm, let see. wake up late and start the day with some lame breakfast and go online all day long seems good for me, even know it will be so much better to have a great gateaway on such holiday(go to jakarta and china on the next day, that's what i mean gateaway haha)

gosh, maybe some promises are made to be broken. that's what i think. my mom don't even reply my text. hmm, thanks god, now i'll have the worst holiday ever.

so, how was your holiday??

byee :D

gosh, i miss blogspot

so maaaaaaaany things happened! gosh, i really miss blogspot. and guess what? it's holiday now :D

kelas 11
i finally got to choose where do i want to actually study. masuk IPS gueeee! cuman gara-gara nilai math gue yang astaga 6,5 c shit yang bikin gue cuman bisa masuk IPS since there is no bahasa in my friggin' school. tapi justru gue seneeng :D

my fake farewell sleepover
yeep, kmaren tgal 26 alias hari jumat anak-anak pada nginep di rumah. rame banget, isinya alumni semuaa. bakal kangen mereka sumpah(vhe, nogkyong, ichel, zulfa, icha). guys, if only you know that i actually lied hahahaha but still, so much fun. gajelas banget kita cuman puterputer jogja buat ngabisin bensin. film ga dapet, makan gaenak, ac ga dingin, mobil penuh, bolakbalik jemput icha sama nora hahahaha i'll miss it for sure.

have my sister room for myself
gilaak kamar mbajeng gede bangeet and guess what i'll be here for a year. osh, i love it here. if only there's no those eyes that always swatching my moves bzzt

byee :D