ajgmonster

reason and action

2010-06-05T21:19:00.000-07:00

it has been a long time :) how are you doing, blogger?

the only reason why i wont open or continue to post in this blog is that i'm afraid to read this blog all over and begin to cry, again. but then i thought that now i'm stronger and i really hope that i'd treasure that moment like i said before, that's why i'll post again.

wish me luck :)

hell-o

2009-11-13T07:08:00.000-08:00

moving to tumblr :D

some update to cover that shit up :p

2009-10-29T03:23:00.000-07:00

seems like forever i haven't write, I'm still trying to wake up from this traumatic moments in my life :(

updates updates updates

my friend told me about this album that hell i love so much :D it's MALIQ N D'ESSENTIAL's mini album. there's one song that i love in this mini album that consist of 6 beautiful songs, it's coba katakan. i'll write you the lyric(i actually googled it hahah) but hey find the download link by yourself ya haha

coba coba katakan kepadaku bahwa kita sedang berjalan menuju satu alasan,
janganlah kau katakan bila kita memang tak ada tujuan, dari apa yang dijalankan,

aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan,
terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa,
aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti,
lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini..

coba coba katakan kepadaku sekali lagi bila kita memang benar akan kesana,
buktikan dan buat aku percaya bahwa kita bisa, mewujudkan bahagia,

aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan,
terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa,
aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti,
lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini..

ohh.. oh.. habis sudah semua rangkai kata..
telah terungkap semua yang kurasa..
yang kuingin akhir yang bahagia.. hoo..

aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan,
terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa,
aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti,
lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka..

aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan,
terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa,
aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti,
lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini..

wohoho.. dudududu…
wohoho.. dudududu…

yang ku inginkan..
satu tujuan..
sebuah kenyataan..
bukan impian..
bukan harapan..
bukan alasan..
satu kepastian..

coba katakan..
coba katakan..
coba katakan..
coba katakan..

i must said it's a great great song and it's been hanging around in my ear for about a week or more. must download okky? :D

another thing about why is it so hard to write lately, is because i have been running away from my last post :) i just don't want to read it again and again and again, like what i did weeks ago. it's traumatic, again t-r-a-u-m-a-t-i-c

life's been roller coaster-ing since that day i post my last post :D

p.s : don't forget to download the song. i'll love you if you do haha

admiring you, but letting you go

2009-10-19T01:46:00.000-07:00

my sister told me that she proud of me and glad that i am finally a girl :)

last night, was the most horrible yet interesting experience in my life. for the first time and i hope is gonna be the last time, i cried for a boy. yes, my tears finally runs down with my thought of letting go.

i'm giving up.

after 4 years of waiting and been hurt a lot. i decided to giving up on him. i found it too tiring and i had enough. i don't wanna waste a life time chasing pots of gold. 4 years is too much and yes it's not a short time. it was actually the worst and the best time in my life.

when i stuck with you playing with my mind and my heart is the one that's left to hurt.

but hey, even know i'm hurt and tired and i want to let it go, i will never regret this. you taught me how to be patient, how to be brave, how to be strong, and how to love someone for who they are. or at least i liked you, no, i loved you for who you are.

i finnaly could and i would treasure this feeling till my death. you're the best that i never had :))

thank you :D

bubbling

2009-10-09T03:27:00.000-07:00

if only i can, i'd treasure it till my death.

there are things in my life that will never be on the right position. things that, yes, meant to be broken. and passion can only be my biggest enemy in time like this. time when you feel down about your life.

just like seeing a ghost pass in front of you and take your soul.

i was bubbling, reading things, and finally thinking.

being a role model is such a waste of time. you can't really be free as anyone else. you have to be as perfect as the perfect robot that we can't even make. you have to be strong, straight, and calm on the same time, just like a pattern on my dress. you have to satisfy the audience that always heartless and arrogant.

when they want you to be their leader, you said yes.
when they want you to be their idols, you said yes.
and when they want you to be their maid, the only answer is yes.

in the middle of my thought,

life brings me down and people just wont notice when everything is actually upside down. feeling like living a lie. don't know where to go and don't know what to do just deal everything ahead of me with my perfectly-perfect-fake smile. i had enough and yes this is tiring.

when the moon is your only friend

i never been this way and i never ever want to be this complicated. have no hope for you or even life is making me such a lunatic. it just like, now i feel glad and mad on the next 5 second. it's been a whole new world for me and it's challenging.

but when they asked me? i just say nothing's wrong, i guess.

and when the magic is gone, i realize that it's all because of you.

admiring you

2009-10-07T06:42:00.000-07:00

If you learn to admire everyone for always doing their best, even in their failures and in times of their most confused moments, you will quickly find the whole world admiring you for your compassion.

love it since the second i read the phrase :D

ps : gapernah kebayang kalo bakal majang foto nyokap di blog = =a felt weird since i have never ever in my life (like really)looking at her picture that actually hang all over my house and now i have it in my blog and it's a big one :D

happy belated birthday mom

2009-10-07T06:04:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, MOM <3

omigod, what kind of daughter am i? so sorry for the late greeting and so sorry i didn't give you anything on your bday. so sorry for being the worst daughter. so sorry for the way i act like for the last 16 years. i'm just a person in this random world and still learning how to live and how to love what's mine and yes you're mine but i never ever love you the way you love me. i never really appreciate what you did, what you made, and what you gave to me. i'm so sorry i know i never really try to be the best daughter of yours. again, sorry.

i love you, mom <3
even when i said i hate you, you're the worst mom in the world, you know, deep down in my heart i will always love you. and how could i don't love you? you're my mother. my own mother :D

xoxo :-*

breast cancer awareness, header, and holidaaaaaay

2009-09-30T09:38:00.000-07:00

omigod, beneran deh penyakit males ngepost kumat parah bin ajaib men = =a saking malesnya ngeblog skarang postingan gada yang pake bahasa alien alias english gajelas haha and now i made a new header instead of writing, again.

talking about new header, check out mine, it's the breast cancer awareness edition. that's why i made it in pink, in case u'll ask me somehow :D sebenernya gua juga gatau sejak kapan ada breast awareness thingy or day, whatever, but since i use picnik for the editing(god, this laptop doesn't have adobe photoshop, SUCKS!) i found out about this awareness thing and decided to use it :D

so, guys, wake up and be aware, okyy?

uh yeaah, another info for you guys, i'm in jakarta now :D for like about 4 days, i guess. guess what? i'm gonna shop like a lunatic, HELL YEAH!! i've got a pair of cute sneakers already. it's macbeth an it's green :))

so happy :D

i'll be back on 2nd of october and can't wait for school. i miss my friends and miss the hang out thingy and cutting school thingy, which will never ever happen again cause i already made a promise that i'll be a good student this time :D wish me luck, okyy?

byee
enjoy your holiday :D

new header

2009-09-26T03:56:00.000-07:00

look up and look down

ternyata emang bagusan header yg lama daripada ini. ngek nyesel ganti = =a

random

2009-09-26T00:24:00.000-07:00

i found that my post been so short lately harhar akhir akhir ini mau nulis males banget ngek = =a

i havent sleep enough lately and hell it makes my kinda went wrong. bikin gabisa bedain siang sama malem garagara tidur siang bangun malem = =a, make me feel hungry 24/7 ngek.

i even forgot about the idul fitri post thingy hahahaha

mohon maaf lahir batin

happy eid!!!

monster and family :D

telat banget = =a

oyeaaa, how was ur holiday?
mine was the worst holiday ever. as i said, i havent sleep enough and it makes me feel lazy all the time and i end up with online-ing like forever harhar i really need a gateaway i guess :D

one more thing :D do you like my new emot? = =a harhar

faaaaaak

2009-09-23T01:23:00.000-07:00

it's funny when i actually know that i can fool every single human being around me but not myself. i know my secrets, i know exactly how do i feel about things, i know my story. and it's get funnier when i found me wishing to be somebody else just because things are waiting to be solve right in front of me. felt like wanting to be stupid enough to not understand what happened.

life is just too tiring sometimes.

you belong with me

2009-09-19T01:43:00.000-07:00

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, She's upset
She's going off about something that you said
She doesnt get your humour like I do

I'm in the room, its a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesnt like
And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find
That what you're lookin for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me
You belong with me

Walkin the streets with you in your worn out jeans
I cant help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on the park bench thinkin to myself
Hey isnt this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I havent seen it in awhile, since she brought you down
You say you find I know you better than that
Hey, Whatcha doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standin by, waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that?
You belong with me
You belong with me

Oh I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're about to cry
I know your favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams
I think I know where you belong. I think I know it's with me.

Can't you see that I'm the one who understand you?
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by or waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that
You belong with me
You belong with me

Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me
You belong with me

tanya kenapa?

2009-09-18T13:06:00.000-07:00

still wondering kok bannerku ga bisa muncul ya?

happy go round banner

2009-09-18T01:18:00.000-07:00

god, i have nothing to do and someone told me to make a banner so here it goes harhar

nice huh? or else, stupid?

what daughters suppose to feel about their father

2009-09-17T21:09:00.000-07:00

My Dad is an autis, but he could make me laugh and feel safe. He also give his very best for me, when every single daddy out there are just busy with their work, my dad is always here with me. I am happy with my dad, even people laugh at him, i still love him just like he love me

that's a dialog from i am sam(2001).

nice huh?

p.s: i moved the banner box. it's on the bottom of the blog now harhar

did i do the right thing?

2009-09-16T08:26:00.000-07:00

there are times when the big question bumped me right in front of my nose just like now.

did i do the right thing?

i mean, there's too many in life that we have to choose, we made too many decision, and how do we know for sure that we made the right decision or not?

making an effect

2009-09-15T09:39:00.000-07:00

jadi kemaren hari jumat ato sabtu ato kamis(totally forgot!!), icha sama vhe sempet maen ke rumah and yes we played firewooorks :D lalu setelah fireworks abis akhirnya kita isengiseng bakar bungkusnya dan voilaa~~! terciptalah fotofoto di atas

and just got the idea how to make an effect from these photo. kalo dicombine sama efect lainnya bisa menjadi seperti dibawah ini harhar

nice huh? :D

stupid

2009-09-14T23:50:00.001-07:00

why am i suddenly losing my mind, get high, drunk, being mellow and stuff?

simply just because, yes, i'm in love(kinda embarrassing but wth hahah) :D i never been too this situation and got stuck with a boy hanging around my mind and hell yeah i can't even make him go.

seeing him everywhere i go, felt like wanting him to be around me 24/7. even know it will never happen. kinda hurt.

no, it's so damn hurt.

knowing that he's a one big jerk and the most disgusting creatures that ever live it's the dumbest thing i ever do.

yes, i'm stupid, i should have known that i should never fall for him. but everything i do seems not good enough for make me hate him.

all i ever know is that trying to make him even realize that i'm here it seems impossible to me. and i don't even want to stop trying.

stupid

never ever in my life i feel so dumb
and even write this such a junk = =

nah geez --> najis = =

2009-09-09T02:51:00.000-07:00

gabisa nambah link di blogroll? najis = =

i'll fix this ASAP :D

passion pit rocks!

2009-09-08T08:25:00.000-07:00

passion pit is one of my favorite musician and hope you like it guys :D

blog-rolling-on-the-floor-laughing

2009-09-08T00:38:00.000-07:00

listening to millions different song, watching those amazing video, clicking on banners, reading stories from the whole world, looking at those beautiful photographs, knowing what people feel, do, listen to, watch, hear. feeling like anybody but me for a while.

blogwalking always been a pleasure for me.

SE aino, SE satio, Xperia™ X2 or a wishlist??

2009-09-04T01:33:00.000-07:00

my wish is to get one of this phone :D

McD, i'm in love :D

2009-09-03T08:35:00.000-07:00

falling in love is the greatest feeling in the world. especially when u're falling for something that will never disappoint you, like at all. yep, falling in love with a guy named McDonald is the craziest thing i ever felt. this last 3 days is the most poping days in my life. i never felt like this before, hey, it's never stupid to love food as much as i love my self rite? i mean we are what we ate anyway :D

so, McD. i don't know why but i really really want to go to McD lately. been missing triple cheeseburger even know i cannot afford it. and at last, i cheated on it with double cheeseburger. it may not feel the same but it satisfy my tummy anyway. i went to McD with 3 crazy girls, icha, bayu(yes, you're a girl man :D), nindy. we talked a lot and yep, laugh a lot. we were having the time of our life(i want to hang with u guys again, sooooooon!!).

god, McD, i'm so in love with youu hahah :D

my can't-really-say-lovely-geez blog

2009-09-01T01:50:00.000-07:00

kinda surprise(not) when my friend actually tell me that my can't-really-say-lovely-geez blog were in google :D

delicious ambiguity

2009-08-31T06:30:00.000-07:00

why does everybody trying so hard to say something, well say it sok puitis when they're actually facing something. i mean trying too hard to find the right word and publish it anywhere they like or even just say it out loud seems too much. and writing on their blog seems stupid(yes, i am stupid. at the moment XP)

having things going on right in front of my nose felt like an alien stole my brain and hell yeah i can't thing clearly. even i get dumb( oh geez i admit it = =). but hey, that's life we never know what ahead of us and just get crash when it actually come, delicious ambiguity(faak!) some said. but it's a crap = =

gimme back my brain, monkey!

2009-08-22T06:49:00.000-07:00

gosh, i look like a lunatic eating ritz, like the whole ritz by myself and now i'm so full of cheese - -" i can feel it, just like there's a lump of cheese dancing around in my stomach gosh

u know what? sometimes i think why is there things that we can't control? just like sun. we can't control it right? and geez it so hot outside now. it feels like i want to fly to the sun with an axe and cut it right in the middle and eat half of it. so the world actually can be a colder place geez

and i wonder why do i love to say geez so much lately? i mean, i don't even understand what the heck is geez( it's an expression, i know. but what is that mean actually huh?) and when people asked me what's with the geez? one thing that i did it for sure is just smile - -"

ahhhhhh i think my brain is stolen by a monkey from aerospace. gosh i don't even know what the heck am i doing right now typing all of this sentense that actually nonsense and yet useless haha - -"

cc'mon gimme back my brain i need it to sleep = =

chongqing, china has eaten me alive

2009-08-16T22:13:00.000-07:00

i'm home and never cross my mind that i'm gonna miss china especially chongqing this much - -"

list of things that i miss
1. mcchicken nugget 5 pieces everyday all the time
2. underground market tempat gue beli sendal sial - -"
3. pan jian's chicken leg
4. no.8 middle school's canteen
5. lab kompi where i broke my glasses
6. smelly toilets all over the city
7. 16th floor where all the magic happened
8. room 1810 kamar paling kayak tempat sampah sehotel
9. the elevator that wont close because we press the open button for like 20 minutes
10. disgusting stairs where i lost my breath
11. tempat duduk depan lobby on one night stand with nora
12. receptionist yg nyampe eneg ngeliat muka gue 5 kali nongol sehari buat minta kunci
13. that god damn it bus where i lost my cell
14. anakanak brunei, tarakan, jakarta
15. game center yg gaseru abis bzzt
16. bandara guangzhou tempat gue stuck 2 jam sama guru paling anjing
17. mbajeng and mbasarah yet rudi
18. restoran terkutuk yg bikin gue ngerelain gelang kesayangan gue buat si yuan bojone rina(rina, you owe me big time girl)
19. acara cuci baju and hair dryer it to dry hahahahaha
20. maen texas hold 'em that makes my finger real hurt( 480 sentilan in one night)
21. bahasa alien yang sumpah anjing banget bikin misuh di sembarang tempat
22. bayu's ipod and rudi's headset accompany me when i feel down
23. TD wear where i bought that cap i love so much
24. bakery every morning( love that banana biscuit so muuuuch)
25. walk to school every single day that i impossible do it here
26. luo and peng laoshi. especially peng laoshi with her "not really girl" thingy geez
27. sate kambing ala cina yg sumpah enak banget tapi gue gabisa makan
28. vhe's and rina's camera
29. CAVALERRI and CAVALIERS who fulfill my 2 weeks there
30. the zoo and that panda bag :D
30. ooooooooh, ROOM 1612 WHERE I DID IT ALL
31. shut i begin to cry and forgot things ~~

summer camp 2009 ROCKS!! oyeaaa~~h :D

screewing up

2009-07-26T00:51:00.000-07:00

i'm finally home and yea, back to basic. i miss my school(can't believe it), facebook, twitter, especially my blog. facebook has been block in china and i don't even know why. so i kinda miss my friends - -"

so, guangzhou for the past idk 2 weeks. it's been boring with all of its hospitalshit that has been hanging around me. yep, i had two surgery back there. one sinus and one in my troath. the surgery last for 7 hours and it suppose to be 2 hours. parah banget gue. udah ngalahin orang ngelahirin deh. parah.

couples of days ago my friend told me about this summer camp that the ambasador actually made it. and guess what i'm applying and hopefully going back to china on august 2nd and stay there untill august 16th. hopefully.

i can't believe it that i actually missed 2 weeks of school and now i miss it and i want it baaaaaaaaaaack :D but i'm glad i did it and i actually done m surgery. so i guess it worth it :D

tomorrow will be my first day at school and i can't wait. i cut my hair, buy a new pair of shoes, buy a new bag, a new wallet and i decide it to not wear my idk kerudung and stuff. i decide it to go straight away with my polo shirt, jeans, and vest. wish me luck :D

i really don't know what to say but i really want to keep typing and i ends up to screwing all the story hahah.

oh yeaaa, forgot i bought the wimpy kids diary books volume 2 hahahahaha. i love it. i read it on the plane since i found it in jakarta earlier today. the second book called rodrick rules and it's pretty darn good. still love it and wish i got the chance to find the 3th boook :D

byeee

chinaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

2009-07-01T01:46:00.000-07:00

gosh, i'm finally going yeaaa. i'll be gone by tomorrow. i'm off to china beibeeh!

some promises are made to be broken

2009-06-30T11:34:00.000-07:00

woke up in the middle of the night and don't know what to do jadi update ajaa hahaha

the worst thing about always waking up after hours of good sleeping is to chat with such a crap like a friend of mine. he always giving me some old shit advice(and it's his way of mocking me) that i actually don't need. and yea i had it tonight and it's sucks - -"

with hannah montana on my big screen tivo and him bugging me. it's been horrible night. gosh, i really do boring :((

making a plan. what would i do tomorrow?
i suppose to go to jakarta tomorrow and china the day after that but since i've been told that my parents cancel that trip, fuck. i have nothing to do tomorrow. got no money, no friends(they all gone for holiday, gosh, i envy you guys).

hmm, let see. wake up late and start the day with some lame breakfast and go online all day long seems good for me, even know it will be so much better to have a great gateaway on such holiday(go to jakarta and china on the next day, that's what i mean gateaway haha)

gosh, maybe some promises are made to be broken. that's what i think. my mom don't even reply my text. hmm, thanks god, now i'll have the worst holiday ever.

so, how was your holiday??

byee :D

gosh, i miss blogspot

2009-06-30T00:57:00.000-07:00

so maaaaaaaany things happened! gosh, i really miss blogspot. and guess what? it's holiday now :D

kelas 11
i finally got to choose where do i want to actually study. masuk IPS gueeee! cuman gara-gara nilai math gue yang astaga 6,5 c shit yang bikin gue cuman bisa masuk IPS since there is no bahasa in my friggin' school. tapi justru gue seneeng :D

my fake farewell sleepover
yeep, kmaren tgal 26 alias hari jumat anak-anak pada nginep di rumah. rame banget, isinya alumni semuaa. bakal kangen mereka sumpah(vhe, nogkyong, ichel, zulfa, icha). guys, if only you know that i actually lied hahahaha but still, so much fun. gajelas banget kita cuman puterputer jogja buat ngabisin bensin. film ga dapet, makan gaenak, ac ga dingin, mobil penuh, bolakbalik jemput icha sama nora hahahaha i'll miss it for sure.

have my sister room for myself
gilaak kamar mbajeng gede bangeet and guess what i'll be here for a year. osh, i love it here. if only there's no those eyes that always swatching my moves bzzt

byee :D

my very first award *thanks zifia :D

2009-06-21T04:51:00.000-07:00

award award award :D

baru pertama jadi gamudeng hahaha tapi i've been asking and got the answer yipiie!(orang cuman tinggal copet ajaa, gampang cuy). makasih zifia udah ngasih award :D ak kasih balik deeh haha

AWARD PERTAMA

Dan AWARD ini dianugrahkan kepada:

1. Nama : RA. Cintya Paramastri
2. URL/Web : http://monsterisshoutingtoday.blogspot.com
3. Email : ajeng.monster@hotmail.com
4. Hobby : m a k a n :D
5. Cita-cita : ketemu sama raja minyak arab terus dikasih duit banyak (amin :P)
6. Mulai Nge-Blogwalking : couples of months
7. Kota Kamu : jogjaaa

AWARD ini saya anugrahkan kembali kepada:

1. http://orisaori.blogspot.com/
2. http://gubukderita.wordpress.com/
3. http://ronamentari.blogspot.com/
4. http://hanyacatatanbiasa.blogspot.com/
5. http://semuti.blogspot.com/
6. http://sianaktinggi.blogspot.com/

p.s. yang dapet award diterima yo haha(tinggal dikopi data di atas trus edit deh)

i wonder

2009-06-20T08:42:00.000-07:00

there are things that i actually wonder

1. kenapa orang selalu bisa punya waktu buat ngupdates blog/fb/twitter/etc?
err, i think that there are things that actually more important than those things that i mention. but, hampir kebanyakan orang ngupdates their things on web tiap hari. contoh nyata nih, kakakku. dia bisa-bisanya 24 jam online fb, ym, msn, skype, etc. even when she's gone those things masih nyala aja dan stelah dia balik pasti langusng ke depan kompi lagi.

2. kenapa orang selalu punya things to say on their blog?
aku susah banget [unya ide mau cerit apa di blog. alhasil malah nulis rubbish gapenting. aku sukak heran, orang kok bisa sih ngupdates panjang-panjang sedangkan aku ngga. one blog that i like the most tuh blognya kakak kelasku. dia kalo updates bisa 2 kali sehari dan panjang-panjang. and still the story always fresh - -"

3.astaga, bakal ada sinetron manohara
gila, masak barusan aku lia iklan sinetron manohara. gapenting banget bin kurang kerjaan. ngapain cobak dibuat sinetron segala?? mgo,omg bindo aja masih gajelas udah bikin sinetron segala, astaga.

4. night at the museum and a soarthroat
yea, night at the museum diputer di rcti. eh, sekarang film-film cepet lho masuknya ke tv indo. kemaren aja di trans maen stealth(bener ga sih tulisannya??). kalo itung-itung tv indo, itu udah lumayan cepet lho. stealth kan baru beberapa tahun yg lalu. 2006 kalo gasalah. whatever. yang penting sekarang tenggorokanku sakiiiiiiiiiiiit - -" kalo ngomong suaraku jadi fals wakakakak gaenak banget

byee all :D

trash can

2009-06-19T19:39:00.000-07:00

bloody updates :| kangen ngeblog!

exam finally finish
yeaaaaah! the happiest moment for student is when the fucking exam finally over :D nilaiku membengkak semua, anjis! tapi civic kereeeen men 100 hahahahaha fisika sama kimia parah ancur 3 semuaa. IPS bener dah ni.

bokap opname gabisa bebas
here we go again. who's playing a trick on my father this time? he's hospitalize, again. don't you people think about his family? i can't stand it, i always feel sleepy when i'm around him - -" i can't hang with my friends and do my task properly. it might sounds so selfish but come on it's been idk 2 weeks? it's start to annoy me. just stop it people! get a life! don't spend too many times in "dukun" things or whatever!

i've been waiting for this
holidaaaay :D i'm still waiting till 26 June so i can go to china(that i hope it will really happen) i've been playing a trick to all my friends saying that i'm gonna move on 28 June to china and all of them(mostly) believe. well then, too easy :D

i don't have anything to wear today
keabisan baju!! gila sumpah kayaknya baju seabrek-abrek tapi tetep gaada bajuku :| have nothing to wear today. where did all my clothes go? shit

got a lot to tell
seriously, i've got a lot to tell actually. but idk i always forget things.

bloody updates

2009-06-11T04:40:00.000-07:00

long time no updates!!

i've been so busy with exam and hospital thing(my father got hospitalize again). i kinda miss blogspot lately but really i don't know what to say :D

assignments

2009-06-02T09:45:00.001-07:00

i decided to work on my assignments. it's been hanging on my memory for the past idk 5 and half month :D so, yea, next week the exam will start and i have to finish all of my assignments. just, wish me luck!

the assignments :
1. koalisi partai
2. keanekaragaman hayati
3. tumbuhan lumut dan paku
4. review film ratatui(gabisa nulisnya - -")
5. EQ, IQ, SQ.
6. makalah orde baru
7. makalah magang
8. makalah flea market
9. perbedaan kaligrafi china dan arab

masih banyak cuman aku lupa :D

i was writing this post while i'm waiting for the song that i download. it's "help i'm alive" by metric. it's a great song :D

another rubbish

2009-05-30T20:57:00.000-07:00

i though it would be different. sitting here alone in the middle of rush hour at plaza ambarukmo. waiting for the war to blow between my sister and her ex, with songs burning in my ears. in fact it's not different at all. it seems to be there's something wrong with me, even i don't know what it is. but, yea, i feel it in my throat.

bindo vs binggris
menurutku kadang-kadang lebih gampang mengutarakan sesuatu pake bahasa inggris daripada bindo. kalo pake bidno berasa agak-agak vulgar ato kasar banget. tapi kenapa berasa biasa aja kalo pake binggris? abnormal - -" padahal kalo kita liat bindo itu jauh lebih beragam ketimbang binggris. ini membuktikan kalo aku ngga bisa menggunakan bahasku sendiri dengan benar. aku terlalu sibuk buat belajar bahasa asing sampe bahasaku sendiri aku lupain - -"

hari yang crowded
ini hari minggu dan pagi-pagi aku udah harus sibuk memaki orang-orang di sunmor cuman buat nganterin bapak ke acara kongresnya - -" mbak ajeng udah sampe emosi mukanya jadi lucu banget sumpah hahaha jam 10 kita mesti perggi lagi gara-gara mbakku ada reuni gitu dan ternyata yang dateng cuman 5 orang(astaga). mana di amplas rame banget dan aku harus duduk sendirian kayak anak ilang di pojok food court sambil ngenet. what a pleasure - -"

batere laptop
kayaknya batereku ngedrop. baru dua jam aku pake buat ngenet sambil dengerin lagu udah tinggal 24%. parah banget. mana keadaan laptopku udah ngga jelas gini. mbaret-mbaret sana sini padahal masih baru. ngga baru jugak sih, tapi baru bulan januari aku belinya - -"

anak bm
kok tumben ya. kayaknya ini hari libur tapi amplas yang rame masyaoloo sepi anak bm. aku ngga ketemu satupun. tapi malah kemaren pas aku gamau ketemu malah ketemu banyak banget - -" ah, amplas gabisa diajak kompromi ah. payah.

terminator salvation
over all it's a great mocie and you must watch it! film ini membangunkanku dari tidur nyenyakku. sumpah keren banget :D agak-agak mirip sama transformer sih, tapi must watch bener daah.

transformer 2
aku jadi inget kalo waktu nonton angels and demons kemaren ada extra ini film. anjiis, keren banget :D robotnya gede-gede men hahahaha

really unimportant post but enjoy it guys :D
byeee

playlist

2009-05-28T04:56:00.000-07:00

gejala itu finally here

aku males nulis. sebenernya aku pengen banget nulis terus. cuman gada ide lagi. kalopun ada, begitu mau ditulis malah bingung nulisnya gimana - -" mungkin itu kali ya yang bikin aku sering gonta-ganti blog(parah).

oiya some updates

lenka - trouble is a friend
first time, i though it's a weird song. tapi aku cobak ulang-ulang untuk berapa kali ternyata memang aneh - -" lagunya familier di kuping. mirip kayak lagu apa gitu aku lupa :D sejauh ini lagu lenka yang aku suka cuman the show. padahal anak-anak bilang lagunya bagus-bagus(kupikir lagunya aneh hehe). uh well, it just one person opinion, don't get to hysterical :D

david neil - red light
aku belom denger lagunya tapi masih dalam tahap pencarian. taylor swift lagi sukak lagu ini men(gapenting). so, anyone kalo ada yang punya, mintaaa dong :D

ratatat - kennedy
udah agak lama sih aku donlod lagu ini dan sukak banget :D ini soundtrack dari nick and norah's infinite playlist(udah nonton? bagus). intrumental sih tapi catchy banget dan enak banget buat didenger

stiff dylans - ultraviolet
lagu ini jugak udah lama aku donlod. agak beda sama aliranku yang dulu-dulu sih, tapi lumayan buat jingkrak-jingkrak. ini jugak soundtrack film. pernah denger angus, thong, and perfect snogging? yaak, ini lagu soundtracknya film itu haha. btw, soundtrack ini film bagus-bagus. ada the rumble skirt, the pigeon detective, lenka, scouting for girls, and so on yang bener-bener artis inggris aku gakenal. tapi lagunya bagus-bagus, eventhou kebanyakan emang cewek banget gitu. tapi bagus :D

oficina G3 - unconditional
aku sebenernya gatau band ini asalnya dari mana, tapi berhubung yang ngasih lagu ini ada di brazil, jadi kuasumsikan kalo band ini asal brazil. he said, "it's the english version"(kata-kata ini tambah bikin aku yakin kalo band ini dari brazil). lagu ini sumpah keren banget. mirip-mirip sama lifehouse sih, tapi gakalah keren.

vampire weekend - ottoman
lagu ini sebenernya udah lama banget aku donlod(walopun soundtrack nick and norah's infinite playlist jugak). cuman aku gapernah bosen sama nih lagu gatau kenapa. kena pelet kali yak? - -"

kayaknya postingan kali ini cuman membahas tentang playlist laguku deh, parah.

sebenernya aku berniat buat bikin postingan yang agak sensitif(bleeh) kali ini. cuman as i sadi aku gatau gimana nulisnya and it's actually not that important. so, later on aja deh :D

byee
p.s: as demi lovato said, this is real, this is me!

not important at all

2009-05-25T06:38:00.000-07:00

well, this post is actually had been hanging on my draft list for about 2 or 3 days. but, just enjoy it guys :D

sushi sushi sushi
yeah, i just had the best night, makan sushi di sentana bistro always been a great expo :D setelah semaan yang melelahkan, akhirnya kita sekeluarga makan sushi hahaha we ordered salmon mayo, salmon skin, tempura maki, etc. my favorite :D

her school thing and his new BB
right, sekarang semua orang pada jadi setan - -" mereka tau banget aku pingin dua hal besar itu, new mobile(T-mobile sidekick) and going abroad. dan sekarang kedua orang terdekatku dapet apa yang aku mau, bukan aku - -" i really really envy you guys for having those thing that i always want. congrats sis for the going-to-china-for-school thing, good luck cos i really want the same thing - -" i'm happy for you bro, for your new BB. i actually don't like about the whole BB idea, i just envy him because he's got a new mobile. kalo dia sampe beli T-mobile sidekick, aku bakal bener-bener bunuh diri! i want that T-mobile so bad!!!!!!

T-mobile sidekick
ahhh, i want this mobile so bad!!! cuman sayang banget di indonesia gada t-mobile center. bikin gprsnya gabisa. shut! cepetan dong nyampe sini. pengen beliii :D aku include fotonya deeh

kereeeeeen. ini kayak PDA tapi slide gitu. biasa dipake artis hollywood gitu deh :D jadii kereeeen banget :D

what to do?

2009-05-24T21:40:00.000-07:00

stuck in mozart with a totally freaking task - -"

gara-gara aku bolos field trip sekarang aku harus ngerjain makalah di sekolah. tentang materi-materi field trip yang aku sama sekali gatau. this task seems so blur aku ga ngerti harus nulis apa di MS Word and ends up with blogging :D

my only regred
one thing that i regred about my whole week, i missed the BNI jazz. and my friend said it's a good show - -" ada balawan maylaffayza(eventhou i know nothing about this person. but her name sounds cool :D) and the worst thing is that kiko actually have giveaway 2 free VIP tickets. shut!

twitter(again)
as you know, i've been crazy about this thing. so, i have nothing to do and you know what, my updates just fly over the number of 22 hahahaha what a dumb-ass :D

shut!
i really don't know what to do or write now. i'm bored - -"

byeee

bottom line

2009-05-24T08:31:00.000-07:00

capek pake bahasa asing udah pake bindo aja :D

twitter
well, aku udah beberapa hari ini mencoba untuk cracking what is going on twitter? and the worst thing i know that none of my friend have a twitter(lebay) so, it's been boring and my twitter just look really plain and KOSONG. but, overall it's a great place to write lil bit about your activities and blablablabla haha :D follow deeh http://twitter.com/ajgmonster i'll see you there!

restaurant city
kemaren kakak maksa aku buka facebook. cuman gara-gara dia nge-invite game ke aku dan belom kuapprove(males masuk applications dan kubiarkan ratusan notifications itu diam di sana hahahahaha). ternyata menyenangkan :D ak jadi suka buka facebook buat maenan ini :D sayang aku masih urutan 19 dan gapunya banyak duit. uh, well, someday hahahaha.

been bored with facebook
believe me, kalo bukan karena restaurant city aku bakalan officialy ga buka facebook selama 3 minggu. aku bosen facebookan. gada gunanya. aku bahkan bosen sama game-gamenya yang in fact bikin kompi tambah lola.

nyari film
minggu lalu aku udah mulai tertarik buat nyewa film-filom. banyak banget yang pingin aku tonton(dummy, once, monster vs alien ato alien vs monster gatau deh mana yang bener, etc.). apa daya, gabisa naek motor/mobil(which is mean i don't have any transportation), baru miskin semiskin-miskinnya(aku aja hari ini harus ngambil uang yang seharusnya gaboleh diambil buat membiayai makanku :D), don't have any ID card, gatau di mana tempat rentalan cd yg bagus, and finally my biggest problem, MALES. well, i guess this movie fever thing just another useless thing.

ngeremove friends dari facebook
ini mungkin salah satu kegiatanku selaen ngegame di facebook, ngeremove orang-orang yang aku gakenal dari daftar friends. aku males kebanyakkan temen. bikin susah nyari kalo butuh satu orang doang(get it? ak agak bingung haha). so, the thing is i will remove your facebook if i don't know you :D

semoga oh semoga
kakakku baru dapet BB harga super duper miring dan dia bingung apa dia harus ngejual hapenya yang sekarang(w960) atau ngga. nah, ya oloo, berbaik hatilah pada hambamu ini :D semoga kakakku bakal ngasih hape itu ke aku dan aku bisa jual hapeku yang sekarang(dua-duanya trus ntar ganti dopot yang kayak diluar negeri. asik kali yak? hahahaha). amin amin amin. wish me luck guys :D

oya, one thing aku lupa

bolos field trip
seharusnya hari ini sampe besok aku nginep di hutan kulonprogo buat ngikutin acara sekolah, field trip gajelas. ada raftingnya jadi seru(at least that's what they all said). tapi gara-gara semaan dan pada dasar kemalasan merajalela akhirnya aku gaikut :D tapi enak lho. aku bisa malesmalesan seharian di rumah hehehehe

it's been the greatest and the worst weekend of my life.

why?

greatest : aku bolos field trip yang harus nginep di tempat antah berantah somewhere in kulonprogo, berhasil ngebur buat nonton angels and demons, berhasil ngabur buat sarapan pagi mesra(hoekcuih) bersama vhe di kfc yang berbuntut kekenyangan luar binasa, pesta bakwan kawi + pempek di kamar mbak ajeng with besties(vhe and nora). isn't that great? hell yeah!

worst : aku harus ngikutin semaan dari kemaren yang berbuah aku harus pake krudung ke segala penjuru rumah(is not that bad sih. in fact taun ini better than the other :D

bottom line, this weekend is actually not bad at all, i think.

byee :D

my models

2009-05-18T00:25:00.000-07:00

as i said, parent will always be parent.

even if i hate them so much. but, by saying i hate them. it mean that i love them very much. i won't live a life without them.

so this post is all about parent.

what is parent actually?

i typed "parent" and google it just about 2 minutes ago. this is what i've got(from our lovely wikipedia LMAO).

A mother is always the biological or social female parent of a child or offspring. The maternal bond describes the feelings the mother has for her (or another's) child. In the case of a mammal such as a human, the mothergestates her child (called first an embryo, then a fetus) in the uterus from conception or implantation until the fetus is sufficiently well-developed to be born. The mother then goes into labour and gives birth. Once the child is born, the mother produces milk to feed the child. In most situations, due to the fact that the mother was the one to carry the offspring, she is closer to the child. The mother is also usually the one to stay home and care for the child. However, if the mother is working and the father stays home to care for the child, the child would have more time to bond with the father regardless of the fact that the mother was the one pregnant with the child.

Like mothers, fathers may be categorised according to their biological, social or legal relationship with the child. Historically, the biological relationship paternity has been determinative of fatherhood. However, proof of paternity has been intrinsically problematic and so social rules often determined who would be regarded as a father e.g. the husband of the mother.

in simple english, they are a female and a male role models that have been hanging around our life like about forever. they're the one who raise us, tought us about everything, who love us the most and always put us before their self.

sometimes, parent can be so annoying, horible, or even sometimes i really want to kill them. but everytime i see those face and talk to them i really can't kill them, i love them :D and that horible thing they used to do it just their special way to show that they really care about me and i always treat them bad, i don't even apologize.

there are times when i think, how am i supose to do if they're gone? how do i take care of my self? who will be there when i need a shoulder to cry on? i just feel terible about everything.

the thing is that i really love my parent. i don't want to lose them, even know they're annoying sometimes. by posting this post it shows that i care about them and this is the prove!

parent and a birthday party

2009-05-17T08:05:00.000-07:00

parent will always be parent

even when they're not home and left you alone with no food. they still think that you're they're responsibility. that's the fact that i hate so much!

last night, tedjo had a party. and i have to argue with my parent before i went there. for heaven sake, they're not even home! they trust me to take care of my self for a week with no one. and they can't trust me to go to a birthday party?

they're just being unfair. they let my brother and sister to go anywhere, anytime, but not me. it's not like i'm gonna be drunk or something. i'm 16! i'm old enough to choose that i'm going or not. but they don't think so.

so, tedjo birthday party

it was so much fun and the food is actually great :D
but the most important thing is that nusantara were there! we were having a lot of fun!

after the party, me, vhe, nora, aldi, and salis went to happy puppy. but i just sing s couple of songs and went back home cause it was very late.

what i actually have to say

2009-05-16T07:30:00.000-07:00

i really don't know how to say this.

what you have done is actually touching. you've been hanging around my family since very long time ago. and i'm appreciating that you put my family name on the thank you list. well, i really though that you're actually one of my family. so, even know that i have nothing to do with what happened between you and my sister, i would like to say thank you for everything and i'm sorry if i made mistakes. good luck on your life :D

a random beginning to start a story, simply just because it is what i have to say.

a stupid bet and a really nice POKKA green tea

2009-05-15T06:26:00.000-07:00

i had a really tough day.

tomorrow is the competition(finally) but i haven't done any research about the motion. so basically i really don't know what to say tomorrow. galih missed the last practice and i can't understand a word what fahmi said earlier. and i don't even know how do i get there(FE UII) tomorrow at 7.45. i hope that galih will pick me up. and about the ride home cause i don't have any money.

the thing is i'm reallly nervous.

but there are some things that i found it interesting.

a stupid bet with disa
me, vhe, and disa went to angkringan in front of our school and disa told me about the bet she had, the seller offered her to eat 10 of nasi kucing, 10 gorengan, and 1 es teh(isn't that crazy?). so, she asked me to join the bet and hell yeah i joined it. we we're like a total idiot and i ended up with 8 nasi kucing, 7 gorengan, and 4 es teh(i puked right after eat the whole thing). i was so full that i can't breath. but disa managed to eat 10 nasi kucing. but she puked before she done the last spoon(yea, she failed). but it's great thou(but i really think that i shouldn't eat any nasi kucing for about a month :D)

hang with vhe
after the bet, me and vhe went to circle-k and bought POKKA GREEN TEA :D after that we went to a DVD store and bought 3 DVDs. it's Bridewars, 17 again, and the curious case of benjamin buttons. so we watched it(actually i'm the one who watched it because vhe borrowed my computer to go online).

well, i have to do some research.
wish me luck!

things

2009-05-12T07:42:00.000-07:00

new blog, again.
i really don't know why i always love to make a new blog - -"

so, here are some things that I've been doing lately :

click so many website that offer scholarship
few days ago me and Rina(one of my schoolmates) were talking about scholarship. fortunately, my school invited peoples who talked about how to school abroad yesterday, so there were a scholarship syndrome. everyone just like crazy about it, they talk about it every time. so i promise Rina to google about scholarships. now, I'm sick of it - -" I've been clicking a lot of websites about scholarship and voila! i found nothing.

download lots of mp3s
this idea came from a movie that i watched and i really love the soundtracks. so i paused the movie right on the credits and made a note of all the songs. the fact that surprised me is that in a 2 hours film there are about 20 soundtracks and when the sountrack cd has release it's only have like about 12 or 15 songs. so they cut it a lot. i found this song that i really love, id called kennedy by RATATAT. it's basicly intrumental but it's great.

have my sister room for my self for about a week
my grandny just came from Kalimantan and she obviously need a room. so my parent give my room to her and i have to move out, which is mean i have to sleepover in my sister room. luckily, she was in Jakarta and i have her room for my self :D

blogwalking
like always, i love to blogwalking. one night i found this blog that i like. but she always write about love and pain and suffer and now i'm being a bit too much - -" all i know is that the owner is younger than me but she thinks like a 20 years old desperate woman. that's just sad. but great writing thou. love it.

thirteen - addicted to my cherry
i've been listening to this song for about 30 minutes. it's a great song! just check their myspace out! hope you like it :D

debate thing
i'm going to join another debate competition. i got fahmi and galih to be my 1st and 2nd speaker. as usual i'm the 3th speaker, so that's great. i hope we can win this competition. wish me luck :D

that's all,
byee